This is the time when I feel everything is not working out

There, I feel it again in my gut. Everything I do seems not working out for me. It has been a few years since I decide to pursue my passion. Until now, I still have not found my passion.

I thought I like stationeries, so I review pens. I even setup a YouTube channel, but no new video since 4 months ago.

I thought I like making videos; I make videos of my kids. The same thing happens. No progress after 4 months.

I thought I like organizing and I have this dream of setting up a company just like The HOME Edit. But also, I have done nothing other than setting up an Instagram account.

I just don’t understand why is it so hard to find my passion? I look everywhere. It is like everybody seems to know and like what they’re doing. They seem success too. How do they do it?

I want to pursue other passion because I don’t want to be stuck here, in my current job. The money is good, but that’s it. It does not satisfy my soul.

I have google search on “how to find you passion”, but that does not help.

The search result says “Do the thing that you love”; I don’t know what I love doing! I don’t know anymore!

Every time, I feel depressed. It overpowers me, to where I can’t focus on my current job (I believe I hate my job now). I just want to scroll on social media all day long, which is also not good for my mental health.

But I just can’t stop! I think I need help. Or maybe a prayer. I don’t know.